What do I really want to be?

 

There is a lot to this question that I have invested my entire childhood seeking to understand. Looking back in the development of understanding this, I realized that the quest in finding this answer is somehow always somewhere in the future. It is a metamorphosis that develops and inherits effects, experiences through out the journey ahead.

Something that is profound is that although sometimes even getting to your aspired destination, somehow a missing link is always there. Taking on my aspirations, I have always been casing the dream of becoming an animator. Having achieved this in its full glory, I understand that somehow, my life is more than this. To this desire to be more, achieve more, I am in the middle of a cross road to find and understand the deeper sense, of this presence on this earth. One can argue that this can be through my own animation, it is indeed. But, my intellect can understand that there is something deeper to which I still need to dive into and discover.

Funnily enough seeing that these post blogs are not being read by not a sheer amount of people, I feel I can express myself, and somehow, I can build my real self, with no sense of judgement and alter observation of who I am. This is me, and I will let nothing to stop me being who I am.

Like any other person on this planet, I feel down at times, happy at times, emotional at times, and this is perfectly fine. Social Media, tend to spread and evoke the sense that whatever the end user is doing is wrong.

The social reality that I will follow, will only be my own reality. I trust myself, my abilities, and I am worthier more than a Hellenistic Portrayal of a profile, I need to adjust myself into.

(who doesn’t like justified paragraphs; for so many times, I was told not to justify, but the linearity of it all makes me feel at rest)

This is me, my imperfect journey to happiness.

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What is michelinmission?

 

The project that I am currently working on is somewhat different from the rest. The intention for this project is to invoke a sense of happiness, positivity and profound understanding on projecting something that is all but willingness to portray goodness.

Unlike other projects that I have worked on in the past, this project seeks to identify the purpose and the real value of happiness. Staying away from marks, achievements, the real goal that this project wants to evoke is the real sense of self confidence, acceptance and more than ever a real sense of self empowerment.

In the first phase of this project I will focus on the mind, and body. Taking into considerations all aspects, I will try to find a good balance of soul purification and self understanding of these inner struggles. Although this might be hard, and somewhat impossible, I’m ready to commit in doing this for my self good.

This personal journey will seek to create again my inner self discipline aspect, leadership quality, acceptance, and more than ever a remapping of my self significance in this life that i’m living in.

Dream Big, Stay focused and Listen to your heart!

Stay Positive,

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Commencement Date : 13th February 2018

 

 

 

The illusion of a life time

It gets into me when I realize that education has given me so much, and yet waiting for the big call, for the dreamy job aspiration you have always wanted comes with a lot more than doing amazingly great at uni. It seems like a hunger game venture, where employers seek to look at individuals that are tough and well patient to endure the torture of finding the ultimate initial job. There are to counter sides to it which I really hate and more than ever I like.

The hate part is that it does take time, and being an individual like me, I really want to make the best out of anything. For this time, the waiting is so dreadful that makes me think so many things to which I ultimately deliberate all sorts of insignificant details that surround my house. Time like this as well, re energizes my insane passion to create something. Although physically I have not yet deliberated and delivered anything, within me I can feel that my barometer of development is being filled slowly and constantly.

Taking this as a chance to understand my various pathways that I will be developing through out my next part of my life, I’m trying to be acceptful of this given time and resolves myself in doing things that evoke a mental tranquility and peacefulness.

Picking olives, is one of those things that allowed me to understand the various counter arguments that I mentally struggle when I don’t see yet results of the hard work that I have done through out the ages. Taking the Olive tree, I understood that not every year I harvest it. Yet there are years, like this year where the bloom and development of it roots, sprout so many olives, that gives you wonder and awe when trying to get every inch and ounce of it inside the bucket. Similar to life and its journey, there will be times were everything will be dry and fragile, yet the constant nourishment and persistence will bear a lot of good deeds for the time to come.

Keeping this in mind there is hope, and it will be worth it.

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Salut, enchanté. Aujourd’hui, je suis tres energique.

Today I decided to start relearning French again. Although it sounds funny but for some reason I was illuminated to get myself refreshed and energized with some french lessons. Unknowingly I have already progressed to 7 lessons and it feels like I didn’t loose my french connection. It only needed some refreshing.

On the other hand my energy level was a little bit low. Refreshing inbox pages is not what I had in mind after working really hard and studying so much through out my entire existence. Although this might sound too dramatic. It’s something that I’m adjusting myself and trying to get the best out of it. At least I’m having some quality time enjoying the moment, the way it is.

The website is still in progress and am currently jamming and fixing some UI design problems that I had before.

Until then, bonsoir!

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Getting back to it

Today I shall start blogging again. After a long time out of this, i decided to give myself another chance and go towards improving myself and my creative vibe. Although I have successfully graduated , I’m currently under the mid life crisis where I still need to figure out where I’m standing. To this I think that spending my time wisely and creatively is best way to keep going and embracing this change.

As part of this ongoing challenge I wanted to start doing something different everyday, and with this I mean even the most vernacular stuff that I take for granted. Starting today I want to challenge and force myself to create and express my creative vibe in different ways, and try my best in whatever I do. It will be hard but I’m up to a good challenge.

Although I’m unemployed, I think I have to reconnect with myself and really appreciate this time the way it is. Let the worries stay away from me, cause I want to stay + everyday of my life.

Ps.

I did start rebranding ‘Michelinmission’ and I will soon share some of the exciting stuff I’ve been brewing in my head.  Although the website looks like a skeleton, I’ve kicked started the process and its looking great.

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#everydaydifferent

 

 

#day20countdown

This is a beautiful animation that I have just come across and thought about sharing it with you guys. I apologize for not being active at all on this blog, but I had to invest my time and effort on me and my project, and I still need some more time to get it up to scratch.

Things have been slightly tough recently but there is a great sense of satisfaction when eventually all of this will be done. I realized looking at the above animation is that I have gained so much knowledge and understanding that truly marks, how aware we can all become when we stick to the game and truly seek the knowledge and understanding of our inner self.

I still have a long way to go, but I’m pretty sure that everyday that passes, I’m closer and becoming wiser in understanding myself and my inner purpose in pursuing this career.

That’s all Folks.

Eventually I will document everything, I’ve been up to.

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Day 21 Find Focus

It’s been a while and I have been trying to keep this active but things need more time and focus and I had to prioritize myself in working efficiently and diligently.

Although I have few things to share I want to give you something cool I came across not long time ago. Maybe this can inspire some of you to look into.

http://www.loc.gov/pictures/search/?st=grid&co=coll

I find these images very intriguing and there is a sense of authentic memory that reside within each and every photograph.

“To find a fault is easy; to do better may be difficult.” – Louis Nizer

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Day 20 just keep going

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These are some updates of my work. Although I am still working on developing the UVs for my project I have learned so many things and I striving to find better solutions into producing something effective and something that identifies me and my voice.

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Day 16 Authentic Self

Above image is from Spookiz,2016 South Korean Series with epic episodes.

 

 

This week has been a pretty crazy week, but I have built some momentum that I don’t want to loose. I’m starting soon my fish model and hopefully get cracking quickly with modelling, re-topology and developing the proper UVs for my animation.

This is a video that I came across two days ago and it really made me think of how much hard work and truly believing in yourself can actually make you become. This is all that I have been talking about, but I strongly believe that good vibes and positive attitude build up can truly enhance and develop ones internal core to become a better practitioner in this industry.

Keep your head high. Stay authentic to yourself and don’t stop.

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