This was the most imperfect year ever, but that’s ok.
For the first time in my life, I got to live and acknowledge all the insecurities that a young artist can ever encounter when getting into adulthood. First jobs, first deadlines, the first real epic fails and the real-life encounter with pain.
What did I learn from all these setbacks?
Hehe, what I learned is that there is never a right answer to our lives. It is a meander that develops and grows with us. Similar to an airplane setting off from LA to somewhere – the destination and the path that we decide to live in will change and depend on what we do with our actions. Setbacks will be there to challenge us and really make us think deeper of who we are and what we are in this world. Although, for the 99% of the population thy existence does not acknowledge the matter for the 1% is what makes us want to try again and challenge all the nos until finally, we get to the path we all dreamt off. So the setbacks have truly helped me to acknowledge my power and the sheer need to be more, and share more of my goodness.
Where to next?
This blog started off with a mandatory assignment that I had to follow. Although four years ago I did not understand the fullness of this journey, today I feel that I can use this as a way to filter and find answers for my inner self. I want to create more visually compelling work, that I can express these emotions, find the power to touch people and find solace in what I create.
Today the weather has failed us from any sun rays. Its been a long and exhausting day. I have worked on the topology and reworked myself again, as I realized that some parts were not working properly and could be problematic when I try to UV unwrap everything on a later stage, another development that I should work on is the 2D element that is part of this animation.
A deeper evaluation and construction of outcome should be undertaken for me to fully acknowledge which parts I should make emphasis on and somewhat develop my look dev for the eventual outcome.
I shall be discussing as well some animation elements that I might be embedding within my work. These are the following inspirations that I am inclined to develop and further enhance my work into.
Although i don’t have any dance involved within the development of my animation, the rhythmic pattern and energy and same element of fluidity is something that I would like to capture within my animation.
Dealing mainly with developing and formulating the first animation model, and working into achieving other assets this week. Together with this the development and getting on hold of music artist that will help me achieve the final outlook and development.
Hopefully the internet connection won’t fail me this time.
Today I have been working and developing a sequence of test in relation to the development of my character Brice. Trying to keep a clean topology and a well formed structure to the anatomy is somewhat hard, but with some patience and calmness I’m getting there.
Somehow the topology got confused when I combined the two meshes and I could not properly manage it. To this I had to find a way to reface and patch the parts that were not working properly.
I will define and develop my topology and connect all the parts together, and hopefully I will then start developing a proper UV unwrap to start developing my project.
For today’s agenda I shall talk about the aesthetic and narrative that I am developing so far. It’s a bit complicated but bare with me.
So as I said earlier before the narrative that I am exploring is that of an individual that is facing inner dilemma, and he escapes within the wonders of his inner childhood and dreams. It sounds complicated, and to some extent it is. Nonetheless, what I am trying to capture is an aesthetic that delineate and submerges well the scope and resonating factor of the medium in the context of the narrative.
This in all intent is possible, yet I am finding it hard to actually express it in solid 3d spaces. To this I have been considering shifting the essence of 3d aesthetic into something that is more 2d in a bear essence. This sounds awesome, but developing enough power to gain this is somewhat hard and I need a vibe of momentum that will ignite me to find something interesting within.
Looking through splendid work of Glenn Keane and his wonders, I was awestruck how such a 2d animator could evoke 3d elements even within the essence of flat planes.
I know that here there is something deep through which I should look closer. There is something deep, that if I analyse deeply I will find my way into expressing this confusion of thoughts that I have within my head.
This is a notion that anyone from this field from time to time, gets to experience. From class to assignments, whatever stands in the way is those dreaded deadlines which sometimes i’m blessed to have.
Yet then there are those huge steps that although you know you re capable 101 percent of achieving, you re mind and body take on different paths. A hard thing. believe me.
But whenever these days hit me, I just make sure to embrace myself to that moment to that situation and embrace the pain and fear that I have to face.Sounds Very poetic, but somehow it works. Times like these show me how i’m capable to find positive vibes no matter what. Small particles of light that are almost so tiny to see, but somehow I find my way through.
It is like there is an instinct value within my soul that knows that it’ll be fine! Haha although my panic face is all over the place, it is that AHA moment, when I find my way through something is what truly makes all of this worth it!!
In this work i have explored the mundane and vernacular feel that the initial part of the text alludes. The idea of confide spaces opposing to the limitless possibilities that the other environment provides, shares an important understanding to the way that I wanted this work to evolve in. Through various variants and ideas of how I could handle such a work, I looked into providing the viewer with the uneasiness that the persona feels within such a mundane and mechanical state of living.
In all these illustrations I have worked within providing a clear idea of my reaction to such a work.