Learning to decide for yourself

Here is the update :

I refined the mesh much more and hopefully, I can create other assets to build up my modeling skills. I’ve been trying to keep up my great work and work more and more every day. Although sometimes it is hard, I am trying to keep up.

On another note, I realized something extremely important to which I think a lot would underestimate. Never let anyone condition who you are. Let no judgment, no thought or perception destroy or damage who you are. The most important thing is you and your journey. Other people are important but not as important as you are to your being and self. Everyone seeks to make his image the best and unfortunately, in this world, there is more to this than the honest sheer reality of purity from the soul.

Decide for yourself. Seek opinion but you have the gear and steer for your own journey. Not X or Y.

Your identity is yours to treasure and makes use of.

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When the going gets tough, the tough get going

Right now I’m working on my first 3d work of 2018.

 

It’s been a long time coming, but it is fine. I have given myself time¬†off,¬†to breath and live. To stop pressuring myself and feel that it is fine not to be constantly perfect. Being an artist or any sort of creative is not an easy way of being, but it is who I am. Somehow although I acknowledge this power, I feel sometimes lost and not confident at all.

Constantly going to job interviews, and getting the same response has not really helped me at all. To this, I have questioned and asked myself so many questions to which I have never experienced before. Looking at things and unfocusing on me, has made me struggle again what I really want to be. What is my goal in life? Is it really this? Is this what I worked but ass off? Is this what I deserve?

Having been on schedule, on point, in time and well coordinated for the past twenty years, I feel that this is all new to me. I feel that I have constantly conditioned who I was to the system that defined me. Funnily enough, I did everything right but nothing that right. I sought to gain knowledge in places where they blind me from the real raw reality of life. Only now I acknowledge this mental paralysis that has defined me for so many years, has really changed who I am.

Taking all of this and acknowledging my pitfall, I am trying to live in the now. Forget about my worries and past battles that I have still not shaken away. I feel I sometimes live in the past and the future and never focus on the now, which I feel bad thinking about it now.  I hunger to live, but I feel scared it will soon fade away. I need to understand that this is fine, and I have only now to live for. Tomorrow is nothing but a prediction, and this is what I need to think about and understand.

There is self-worth in me and I know. Although not everyone will think this about you, the person that matters is you and only you. The worth is not the many palaces you buy and the beautiful cars you drive, but it is the untouchable beauty that resides in you. I have dreams to case and birds to let loose.

People that we love will never fade away, and this is what will testify the passing of time. Only memories like this should live in me. Let go of what you can’t fix and pursue the best parts of what makes you. Kill all the insecurities and case the beautiful now with all your heart.

This expression is mine, and there is nothing wrong with it.

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This is a beautiful animation that I have just come across and thought about sharing it with you guys. I apologize for not being active at all on this blog, but I had to invest my time and effort on me and my project, and I still need some more time to get it up to scratch.

Things have been slightly tough recently but there is a great sense of satisfaction when eventually all of this will be done. I realized looking at the above animation is that I have gained so much knowledge and understanding that truly marks, how aware we can all become when we stick to the game and truly seek the knowledge and understanding of our inner self.

I still have a long way to go, but I’m pretty sure that everyday that passes, I’m closer and becoming wiser in understanding myself and my inner purpose in pursuing this career.

That’s all Folks.

Eventually I will document everything, I’ve been up to.

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Day 21 Find Focus

It’s been a while and I have been trying to keep this active but things need more time and focus and I had to prioritize myself in working efficiently and diligently.

Although I have few things to share I want to give you something cool I came across not long time ago. Maybe this can inspire some of you to look into.

http://www.loc.gov/pictures/search/?st=grid&co=coll

I find these images very intriguing and there is a sense of authentic memory that reside within each and every photograph.

“To find a fault is easy; to do better may be difficult.” – Louis Nizer

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Day 20 just keep going

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These are some updates of my work. Although I am still working on developing the UVs for my project I have learned so many things and I striving to find better solutions into producing something effective and something that identifies me and my voice.

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Day 16 Authentic Self

Above image is from Spookiz,2016 South Korean Series with epic episodes.

 

 

This week has been a pretty crazy week, but I have built some momentum that I don’t want to loose. I’m starting soon my fish model and hopefully get cracking quickly with modelling, re-topology and developing the proper UVs for my animation.

This is a video that I came across two days ago and it really made me think of how much hard work and truly believing in yourself can actually make you become. This is all that I have been talking about, but I strongly believe that good vibes and positive attitude build up can truly enhance and develop ones internal core to become a better practitioner in this industry.

Keep your head high. Stay authentic to yourself and don’t stop.

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Day 15

Learning from people and understanding that my journey is the same, and it takes time. Being constant and hard working will bare great fruits. I am better than I was yesterday.

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Day 14 Persistence and Endurance

Today it was a huge struggle, I found myself in some dilemma and keeping my threshold high can at times, be a trigger for me to actually feel annoyed and at times upset.

Some things that I should keep in mind to move forward, is that all things that are new can be a huge struggle at first, and Rome was not built in a day, but through small steps I can achieve big heights.

To this I will keep you with a small thought for today. I came from nothing and wherever I’m going I don’t know, the challenge that I have in front of me is something that I have to conquer to move forward for my dream.

Off to challenge myself one more time.

Persistence and endurance will make you omnipotent. Casey Neistat

‘You are what you do’

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Day 13 just keep swimming

Today the weather has failed us from any sun rays. Its been a long and exhausting day. I have worked on the topology and reworked myself again, as I realized that some parts were not working properly and could be problematic when I try to UV unwrap everything on a later stage, another development that I should work on is the 2D element that is part of this animation.

A deeper evaluation and construction of outcome should be undertaken for me to fully acknowledge which parts I should make emphasis on and somewhat develop my look dev for the eventual outcome.

I shall be discussing as well some animation elements that I might be embedding within my work. These are the following inspirations that I am inclined to develop and further enhance my work into.

 

Although i don’t have any dance involved within the development of my animation, the rhythmic pattern and energy and same element of fluidity is something that I would like to capture within my animation.

 

what’s next?

Dealing mainly with developing and formulating the first animation model, and working into achieving other assets this week. Together with this the development and getting on hold of music artist that will help me achieve the final outlook and development.

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(more sun tomorrow please :))

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