it all starts here

Away from comfort, I shall start this journey! Today was the day where I finally started planning out my year, my new chapter and my new ambitious self! All in the power to do good and be good, I have developed a well-structured timetable where I can retrain my body,  my mental capabilities, and my inner peace.

Although I have scheduled something that is simple, I feel that having a simple and clear objective will provide a clear and stable conscious of the way I want to work in the coming months. Together with this I have evaluated and sought to extract the dream goal to which I want all of this to unfold on, and with the sheer commitment, I will hard to redevelop my portfolio and focus on attaining this position.

Through Learning, Hard work, Graditute, and Self Empowerment I will reach the next level of excellence.

Stay Focused and Positive Micheliners!

MichelinMission 🙂

Feeling like a total fail.

I’m not shy to say this but I have days like today, where I feel I lost my way.

I apply for jobs, one after the other and although the majority will say that they are impressed at how many milestones and achievements I have obtained at such young age, I feel I don’t know who I am! After over 500 applications, I feel I lost it all.

This reminds me when at my 3rd grade, I felt I had nothing worth and somehow I didn’t get anything in class and was too slow to understand anything. Not only have I conquered the coming years, but I have savagely worked day and night to reach all possible milestones to be here today. Although I did have setbacks, I did struggle, I was constantly bullied, and stupidly judged, I have fought like a real fighter and really did my utmost to beat any negative vibes.

I want to get that young spirit, that wild and fearless Michelle back in my life. Life is not easy and I don’t want it easy. It will push me down and I will forcefully pull myself back up.

I am not in shape, I am not happy like this, I have an option to get this vibe out of the system and WORK back up. No matter all the No’s and rejections that I will get, I am going to work my ass off.

I will make 2018 a great year. I am going to give it my best, and I will be the wild child that will push away all the negative stance that people echo in my ears. I will push away my negative and sense of giving up into one that wants to achieve. I have lived, worked and had rough days the past two years, but I never gave up on anything I did.

There are good people, out there. I am one of them too.

This is my mission.

Stay Awake, Stay Focused and Stay Positive.

Michelinmission 

Making it a point to finish what i start.

After 3 weeks keeping myself busy and focused, there is already a sense of change within me. I’m looking at things in ways, that I have not done in quite a while. Away from everything that is dull and real, I’m trying to extract and understand the sheer reality of beauty. Although this beauty is not a presentation, I’m focusing on how to become more positive and vibrant within my daily commutes and working environment.

Taking away all that responds to negative thoughts, I am pushing myself into understand the motivational and promising voice within myself. This kind of cheer, was real when I was young ; growing up and somehow through life worries and anxieties I turned all of this into a sheer package of fear and negativity.

Trying to take this turmoil away I am trying to face, and challenge myself in becoming good and appreciative person. Depending on nobody, and comparing myself to nobody I am trying to focus just on my journey. Unlike other years I am taking and reviewing other people success, as an example and way forward within this journey.

Understanding, that my journey is unique, mine and it has a fulfilling quality that only I need to see and work on it. Focusing on it, with all my heart and strength will be my guiding force to be good and do good things.

 

 

The energy that there is within the video is somewhat beautifully remarkable, and this is the energy that we all should convey to all the doubts and fears that restrict and make us disbelief of what we can do.

Cheers to another Positive Week.

Stay +

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Clearing off my room

Today, marking one week off this journey I kicked it off with a big cleansing operation. Moving all my work in a new room, I took off unwanted stuff and started clearing off, years of hidden treasures. It was not easy but now I feel accomplished, and clearer. Somehow checking and removing unwanted items was a necessity I had to do after graduating, but never had the real time and dedication to do.

I feel that start afresh, renovating and changing my space is somewhat needed. Although I have always been allowed to work in any space given, I honestly have never had my own studio. My room and this has created a sort of constant anxiousness within me. Having my mom complaining about all the clutter, I feel at times I had to stick to my guns and finish a task no matter what.

Having a space to be is somehow liberating. A space, where the only rules and position is only yours.

Some cool shelfing I have been looking into;

Mi sueño, algún día tendré un estudio así.

Drawers - perfect flat storage. Would die for a wall of these. For the paper, the wood, acrylic ect...

 

office idea - desk with shelves for lots of books, etc.

Speak Soon Micheliners.

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What do I really want to be?

 

There is a lot to this question that I have invested my entire childhood seeking to understand. Looking back in the development of understanding this, I realized that the quest in finding this answer is somehow always somewhere in the future. It is a metamorphosis that develops and inherits effects, experiences through out the journey ahead.

Something that is profound is that although sometimes even getting to your aspired destination, somehow a missing link is always there. Taking on my aspirations, I have always been casing the dream of becoming an animator. Having achieved this in its full glory, I understand that somehow, my life is more than this. To this desire to be more, achieve more, I am in the middle of a cross road to find and understand the deeper sense, of this presence on this earth. One can argue that this can be through my own animation, it is indeed. But, my intellect can understand that there is something deeper to which I still need to dive into and discover.

Funnily enough seeing that these post blogs are not being read by not a sheer amount of people, I feel I can express myself, and somehow, I can build my real self, with no sense of judgement and alter observation of who I am. This is me, and I will let nothing to stop me being who I am.

Like any other person on this planet, I feel down at times, happy at times, emotional at times, and this is perfectly fine. Social Media, tend to spread and evoke the sense that whatever the end user is doing is wrong.

The social reality that I will follow, will only be my own reality. I trust myself, my abilities, and I am worthier more than a Hellenistic Portrayal of a profile, I need to adjust myself into.

(who doesn’t like justified paragraphs; for so many times, I was told not to justify, but the linearity of it all makes me feel at rest)

This is me, my imperfect journey to happiness.

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What is michelinmission?

 

The project that I am currently working on is somewhat different from the rest. The intention for this project is to invoke a sense of happiness, positivity and profound understanding on projecting something that is all but willingness to portray goodness.

Unlike other projects that I have worked on in the past, this project seeks to identify the purpose and the real value of happiness. Staying away from marks, achievements, the real goal that this project wants to evoke is the real sense of self confidence, acceptance and more than ever a real sense of self empowerment.

In the first phase of this project I will focus on the mind, and body. Taking into considerations all aspects, I will try to find a good balance of soul purification and self understanding of these inner struggles. Although this might be hard, and somewhat impossible, I’m ready to commit in doing this for my self good.

This personal journey will seek to create again my inner self discipline aspect, leadership quality, acceptance, and more than ever a remapping of my self significance in this life that i’m living in.

Dream Big, Stay focused and Listen to your heart!

Stay Positive,

michelinmission

Commencement Date : 13th February 2018

 

 

 

Getting back to it

Today I shall start blogging again. After a long time out of this, i decided to give myself another chance and go towards improving myself and my creative vibe. Although I have successfully graduated , I’m currently under the mid life crisis where I still need to figure out where I’m standing. To this I think that spending my time wisely and creatively is best way to keep going and embracing this change.

As part of this ongoing challenge I wanted to start doing something different everyday, and with this I mean even the most vernacular stuff that I take for granted. Starting today I want to challenge and force myself to create and express my creative vibe in different ways, and try my best in whatever I do. It will be hard but I’m up to a good challenge.

Although I’m unemployed, I think I have to reconnect with myself and really appreciate this time the way it is. Let the worries stay away from me, cause I want to stay + everyday of my life.

Ps.

I did start rebranding ‘Michelinmission’ and I will soon share some of the exciting stuff I’ve been brewing in my head.  Although the website looks like a skeleton, I’ve kicked started the process and its looking great.

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#everydaydifferent