Away from comfort, I shall start this journey! Today was the day where I finally started planning out my year, my new chapter and my new ambitious self! All in the power to do good and be good, I have developed a well-structured timetable where I can retrain my body, my mental capabilities, and my inner peace.
Although I have scheduled something that is simple, I feel that having a simple and clear objective will provide a clear and stable conscious of the way I want to work in the coming months. Together with this I have evaluated and sought to extract the dream goal to which I want all of this to unfold on, and with the sheer commitment, I will hard to redevelop my portfolio and focus on attaining this position.
Through Learning, Hard work, Graditute, and Self Empowerment I will reach the next level of excellence.
I’m not shy to say this but I have days like today, where I feel I lost my way.
I apply for jobs, one after the other and although the majority will say that they are impressed at how many milestones and achievements I have obtained at such young age, I feel I don’t know who I am! After over 500 applications, I feel I lost it all.
This reminds me when at my 3rd grade, I felt I had nothing worth and somehow I didn’t get anything in class and was too slow to understand anything. Not only have I conquered the coming years, but I have savagely worked day and night to reach all possible milestones to be here today. Although I did have setbacks, I did struggle, I was constantly bullied, and stupidly judged, I have fought like a real fighter and really did my utmost to beat any negative vibes.
I want to get that young spirit, that wild and fearless Michelle back in my life. Life is not easy and I don’t want it easy. It will push me down and I will forcefully pull myself back up.
I am not in shape, I am not happy like this, I have an option to get this vibe out of the system and WORK back up. No matter all the No’s and rejections that I will get, I am going to work my ass off.
I will make 2018 a great year. I am going to give it my best, and I will be the wild child that will push away all the negative stance that people echo in my ears. I will push away my negative and sense of giving up into one that wants to achieve. I have lived, worked and had rough days the past two years, but I never gave up on anything I did.
There are good people, out there. I am one of them too.
Today I shall start blogging again. After a long time out of this, i decided to give myself another chance and go towards improving myself and my creative vibe. Although I have successfully graduated , I’m currently under the mid life crisis where I still need to figure out where I’m standing. To this I think that spending my time wisely and creatively is best way to keep going and embracing this change.
As part of this ongoing challenge I wanted to start doing something different everyday, and with this I mean even the most vernacular stuff that I take for granted. Starting today I want to challenge and force myself to create and express my creative vibe in different ways, and try my best in whatever I do. It will be hard but I’m up to a good challenge.
Although I’m unemployed, I think I have to reconnect with myself and really appreciate this time the way it is. Let the worries stay away from me, cause I want to stay + everyday of my life.
I did start rebranding ‘Michelinmission’ and I will soon share some of the exciting stuff I’ve been brewing in my head. Although the website looks like a skeleton, I’ve kicked started the process and its looking great.