Feeling like a total fail.

I’m not shy to say this but I have days like today, where I feel I lost my way.

I apply for jobs, one after the other and although the majority will say that they are impressed at how many milestones and achievements I have obtained at such young age, I feel I don’t know who I am! After over 500 applications, I feel I lost it all.

This reminds me when at my 3rd grade, I felt I had nothing worth and somehow I didn’t get anything in class and was too slow to understand anything. Not only have I conquered the coming years, but I have savagely worked day and night to reach all possible milestones to be here today. Although I did have setbacks, I did struggle, I was constantly bullied, and stupidly judged, I have fought like a real fighter and really did my utmost to beat any negative vibes.

I want to get that young spirit, that wild and fearless Michelle back in my life. Life is not easy and I don’t want it easy. It will push me down and I will forcefully pull myself back up.

I am not in shape, I am not happy like this, I have an option to get this vibe out of the system and WORK back up. No matter all the No’s and rejections that I will get, I am going to work my ass off.

I will make 2018 a great year. I am going to give it my best, and I will be the wild child that will push away all the negative stance that people echo in my ears. I will push away my negative and sense of giving up into one that wants to achieve. I have lived, worked and had rough days the past two years, but I never gave up on anything I did.

There are good people, out there. I am one of them too.

This is my mission.

Stay Awake, Stay Focused and Stay Positive.

Michelinmission 

#Somethingtothinkabout

 

“Disneyland is presented as imaginary in order to make us believe that the rest is real, whereas all of Los Angeles and the America that surrounds it are no longer real, but belong to the hyperreal order and to the order of simulation. It is no longer a question of a false representation of reality (ideology) but of concealing the fact that the real is no longer real, and thus of saving the reality principle.” -Jean Baudrillard ,Simulacra and Simulation

Where he tries to evaluate the exterior image of the imperfect DISNEY WORLD to the condition that the outer space provides. A dichotomy in which it portrays the difference as found within social media. Taking it to a visual account, as the controversial street artists BANKSY in his work portrays this dichotomy to us all to see.

 

Taking this to account is this the hidden reality of the SOCIAL MEDIA? Are we being controlled? Is this the fantasy we live in whilst browsing the online interface? Are we in control?

Invisible relationships build via. network. Is this Connection?

‘Something they can’t get in real life’

The following video is a visual representation of the negative and positive comments found online, addressing the image and the ways people interact with one another. Are we hiding within these spaces? is this a virtual reality.

Essena O’Neill, as she states below she describes the manipulative side of being a social media sensation.

But for people like this the online platform is the accessibility and a means of interacting….an Accessibility !

Finding the weaker parts of the world and amending it.

‘Fight for the freedom of the Web’